Why Am I Cheesin?

There's this dude that I have been talking to for the last 2 months. Shortly after the New Year, we got cool, and chatted frequently. We lost touch for a couple of weeks, but he called me Friday and wanted to finally meet me face to face. Don't you just hate meeting people for the first time via A4A/BGC? Anyway, we met up, and everything was cool. I didn't read too much into it, because we all know how niggas can be. I just played it cool, and got to know him. Not long after meeting, we got comfortable with each other, but nothing sexual popped off. I was basically just trying to see what kind of dude he was. He tried to play the whole mean/snobbish role, but underneath it all he's sweet. What really got me was his smile. When he wasn't trying to look all mean, I caught a glimpse of one of the most beautiful smiles ever. It just lights up his whole face. After we chilled for a couple of hours, he headed home, then called me once he got there. We talked until he fell asleep. Usually, it irritates me when people go to sleep on me, but I had a feeling that he just wanted to hear my voice to be the last one he heard for the night. I probably was reading too much into it, but let me have my moment. LOL. The weekend passed with us texting each other. Tonight, he hit me with a text just saying wassup. I asked when was I going to see him again, and he said he didn't know. He had a busy week ahead of him. I didn't know what to make of that, so i just said aw, ok. Those must have been the magic words because the next thing I knew, he called me saying open my door. I let him and and he said that he wanted to see me and that he didn't want me to think that he was bullshitting me. This totally caught me off guard. I guess me acting like I could care less if I saw him or not got his attention. we chilled for about half an hour, then he had to go pick up his cousins. He's one of those people that ain't really big on affection, so I was really floored when he asked for a hug, and hugged me tight. We then laughed and talked for about 10 minutes in the bitter cold before he actually left. He's been gone 20 minutes now, and I can't stop smiling. I don't know why, because I'm not trying to invest too much into this, yet try not to be so pessimistic. I guess time will tell. My next blog will probably be about some hoe shit that he's done, but I am just going to enjoy my blush session for now.